damn, its been a while

The title says it all. Been a long while since i've logged in much less posted. Has a lot happened since then? i guess so. Aapi got engaged, soon she'll be married. Bah.

This post is gonna be messy. Beware.

As life goes on, things are bound to change. We meet new people, sometimes forget the old ones but hey thats life. We all bitch about life, how crappy it is, and how it could be better. Life is just not fair, it shouldn't be. Because if it is, what do we measure good times by? See if everyone is happy and get what they want, the feeling of that ultimate satisfaction when you achieve something important wont be the same. Thats my take on it. Though rest assured i still bitch about life like everyone else.

Also, as we meet new people, we personally are inclined to measure our life against theirs. Whats surprising to me is, how much better my life is when compared to theirs. Some people do have it easy, and its fine to be a bit envious about that. But most people are just royally fucking up their lives and for what, some measure of temporary comfort! A thing which can be taken from them at a moments notice and leave them devastated. And the best part about such people is that they don't even realize it when the truth is staring them in the face, naked and wearing a toilet paper roll for a hat.
I wonder what would drive people to do that. See i'm not big on the "denial" aspect of life. I've never understood it to be honest. Shit happens, you take a shower and move on. Whats the god damn point of putting your hands over your ears and eyes and saying "NO NO NO NO NO this cant happen" repeatedly?

Procrastination is fine, hell i do it myself, but some matters just need a firm hand to be dealt with. Where one door closes, another one opens. So just step into one. Whats the worst that can happen, you get hurt. Then tough, get through it and wait for another opportunity to come by and then latch on to that. Life is a bit like trial and error. Sure you may hit yourself in the nose once in a while, but that shouldn't stop you from trying.

Anyone who knows me knows that my life has been anything than a bed of roses, it hasn't been a bed of nails either. A mix of good and bad, which makes me appreciate the good times all the more. My sister once remarked " choti choti khushian hain tumhari!" Roughly translated she meant that i'm easily satisfied with the smallest moment of happiness. And thats what i love about these moments, cuz i think thats what really matters in life.
Everyone remembers big birthdays and vacations and stuff, but how many people remember the times they got drunk or stoned, made a complete fool outta themselves, but still were happy about it and had an amazing time. Or when a friend said something extraordinary and made them laugh! These my dear people are the true moments of happiness. These are the moments that stay with you when you think all is lost. They are yours, forever and for always.

This post has been anything but coherent, but i guess i just wanted to write. I'm weird that way.

Bye.